Well, internet, you may have heard there was some ruckus going on at the New School lately, and I can report this: most of us were honestly so crazed about Lab that after our question “OK, but CAN WE USE THE MEETING SPACE?” was answered, my compadres and I really didn’t have time to raise our heads from computers long enough to get a read on that situation. I will just say that I am an advocate of nonviolent protest and am likewise concerned whenever I see what appears to be a very aggressive physical law enforcement response. It is really not affect to say that the Lab people have been too busy to notice much else.
So I’ve been mighty quiet lately but that is owing to a few things. First off, um, LAB. Secondly, I’m really trying to take better care of myself during this round, so doing things like going to yoga, Carnegie Hall, Central Park, watching movies, reading poetry, and meditating amidst the sorry scene of my living room have somewhat taken precedence over writing. Not to mention the fact that this time I’m in a new place which is this: I just don’t know what to say. There.
Saturday, as on most days this term, I schlepped Bagzilla, my beloved (est.) 47-pound bag bearing my laptop, chargers, water bottle (which is always empty by the time I get to Milano after a day at the office), Advil, some notes, a deteriorating calendar, and assorted daily effluvia to campus and our group met. Yadda yadda yadda, I realized I had to grapple with Excel to come up with some numbers for this project.
Now here is the thing. I have NEVER claimed to be any sort of economist. This isn’t owing so much to math anxiety as much as, well, more of an interest in and natural affinity for WORDS. (Please, economists, don’t hate, congratulate, and we’ll all be just fine.)
So I spent Sunday trying to figure out how to generate numbers that were actually meaningful to our project, and then realized I was doing it wrong, and then saw my colleagues’ work, and sort of tweaked some things, but frankly? I’m still not sure on this math.
So what has been lovingly christened The Excel Spreadsheet of Doom is out there in google group land, and better numeric minds than mine shall hopefully make more sense of it. In the meantime, I am trying to muster the strength physically, emotionally, and mentally to push through to the end of the term. I’ve had some rather sad moments over all of this lately, even wondering what I could have to look forward to other than lab, and then someone reminded me, this ends SOON.
It is supposed to be gorgeous this weekend, so after a Friday of work and lab, spending a spectacular Saturday enjoying, somehow, some part of this weather is really eagerly anticipated. Another? I realized I should start trolling for a really amazing, cheap summer vacation destination so I have some great incentive. So far, hanging out with the sea turtles and monkeys in the Costa Rica rainforest is sounding fabulous. We’ll see. Also? FROGS!!! (I love frogs.)
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