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When I came to Milano in the fall of 2010, I was 100% set on graduating in two years. Get in, get out, get on with serving urban black communities. I was also 100% set on getting the most out of my graduate experience – taking advantage of opportunities for personal and professional growth and enrichment. At the beginning of this semester though I found myself in a quandary – in my desire to graduate in two years and take full advantage of the graduate school experience I put more on my plate than is wise. I’m a TA for policy lab, I’m taking the second  half of Community Development Finance Lab, I’m taking Public Fiance and doing my PDR. And I’m taking Legislative Process for my last elective (good class). And I’m working.

Um…yeah.

That all seems very daunting, so I seriously considered pushing one or two classes to the fall. Of course, that would mean that I would graduate in January 2013 (degrees are conferred twice a year and there is only one graduation ceremony which is in May). I talked to several professors about trying to power through and graduate in the spring with my full load and I’ve been told that A) it’s not a great idea, but B) it’s doable.

“Doable” in the sense that there are students who work full-time and go to school full-time and seemingly have a high tolerance for stress. That’s 100% NOT the experience I wanted coming into grad school. In fact, I purposefully decided to go to school full-time (and took out required loan$) just so that I could really dive deep into my studies without being unnecessarily stressed.

Ah, the best laid plans of mice and men.

But what would I drop? Everything I’m doing has value academically, personally, and professionally.

After much thought and prayer (and a dose of you-need-to-graduate-and-get-a-job reality from my father), I decided to power through.

Is it the best decision? We’ll see. Although I love all the things I’m doing, I fear that I won’t be able to dedicate the necessary time and care that each item deserves.

But I have decided. I am moving forward. I can definitely use your prayers and support.

Onward to May!!

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Beginning Again

Another year begins as does another semester. This is my fourth semester here at Milano. It really does go by fast. It doesn’t seem fast when you first start, but when you start seeing the light at the end of the tunnel, it all can start to seem like it went by quickly.

Since this is my fourth semester, I’m doing my Professional Decision Report, otherwise known as the PDR. It’s the capstone course for Milano students. You serve as a consultant for a client, which you have to get yourself. I have a meeting with my potential client tomorrow. I’m definitely looking forward to it.

This semester has the potential for me to be doing  a lot of work in Harlem, and I’m definitely looking forward to the opportunity to help and serve my community. This is why I came to grad school after all, to serve my community and my people.

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Flicker…flicker flicker. Blink.

That’s me. I don’t know if it’s a rough spot in the semester or what, but I feel like I’m burning out. This finance class (elements of finance) has really gotten to me and I want to just throw my hands up and say “I’m done.” Work is very interesting and part-time, but just because I’m not on the clock doesn’t mean there isn’ t stuff that needs to get done. Throw the TA gig on top of that, my other courses, Toastmasters, and oh yeah, my personal life. Let’s sprinkle in the search for a PDR client and the ever-encroaching employment search and we’ve got ourselves a full pot of stew!

Of course, this is the situation that I’ve chosen. I realize that. No one made me take a job, apply to be a TA, take the courses I’m taking, or go to grad school at all. Seems weird to vent/complain/stress about a situation of my own choosing. But then again most of our situations in life are of our own choosing. That’s a larger conversation so we’ll leave that point for another time. But back to grad school blues…

I think that being in the third semester of a four-semester (full-time) program probably brings a certain stress, and next semester I’m sure will bring a whole other set of stress. I just registered for spring classes today so that probably adds to the mix. As I move through this semester I’ve begun to reflect on my academic experience. It’s probably somewhat premature to do a postmortem since I’m not even 75% through the program, but at this point my classes are decided for the most part. There’s no more “ooh maybe I’ll take that class.” And since my classes are pretty set at this point, it’s easy to begin thinking about what kind of skills I’m going to graduate with. Also, for the PDR, we’re supposed to use the skills we’ve gained at Milano to produce this professional report.

At this point I’m not sure I’ve taken the right courses. I mean I’ve taken the courses that meet graduation requirments, that’s not the issue. My question is whether my course work reflects my true desires of what I want to do with my life. The reality is that choosing classes to set up your career can be much more difficult than one might think. Everyone comes to grad school with certain dreams and desires. As you gain experience and skills your original dreams and desires might change, but you don’t get more electives to balance it out. Then you start thinking about classes that you took (or are taking currently) that maybe you weren’t/aren’t really into and you question it. Then the program might offer some brand new elective that wasn’t available when you came in, and you have to figure out if you can use your precious remaining credits on it – and if it meets your interests better than the course track you’ve already planned out during previous semesters. Just to spice it up, there may be a tension between getting tools (hard skills courses like finance) to courses that are just interesting but don’t necessarily provide you with a marketable skill (other than reading and writing). So in a way the academic experience is a negotiation between past, present, and future selves.

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This is it: one week from now, my PDR will be turned in to my advisor, my final paper for another class submitted, and I will put the final touches on my fellowship report.

It’s a battle to stay focused right now because there are so many things up in the air: job applications, these papers, my ongoing day-job tasks, and how I’ll survive after graduation until I do get a job. At this point, my fantasy is to celebrate quietly and enjoy getting some rest.

As exciting and nerve-wracking as this time is, it’s also a little bittersweet. My entering cohort has largely graduated, and each year has felt so distinct an experience that my whole time at Milano feels even longer than the three years it has been. It’s been such an important place and time for me, and every so often I’m struck by that too.

Good luck to all of us as we’re wrapping up our projects this week!

Kristen

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That’s right. I want to go to post graduate life with weekends.  Real ones, where the most pressing matter is whether to read a novel before or after my long run. Or should I go take care of those annoying errands first? These quandaries sound like PERFECTION.

Last week my Advanced Seminar (the “PDR class”) reconvened a month wiser and nearer to completion. During the course of our conversation, we were invited not only to reflect upon our own experiences with these projects (of which more in a bit here) but also how this capstone experience functioned within Milano’s Urban Policy program.

Well.

The reliable, endearing thing about graduate students is that our programs do such a good job training us to think critically that some of us cannot help but turn that cultivated talent upon our own departments. Every grad student I’ve ever known or heard of has had at some time or other a vague sense that there is Something Missing, or bears a vaguely disgruntled air.  For some people, that time may be minimal; for others it is a constant companion throughout their program. Once a faculty member (not from Milano/The New School) told me that there was an excellent reason for this: “If you were all perfectly happy, you’d never leave. Also, knowing what you would have wanted at the end of your program means you’ve changed direction since the beginning. Another sign of progress.”

Yes. That. I’ve been saving my reflections on this program for another post, but in very specific terms, here are some of the highlights of my class conversation on Advanced Seminar and our program:

a) We wish for more communication with other students about how this process functions and what it is like ahead of time. (Which fits this blog’s mandate, but it was hard/impossible to forecast what this would be like, let alone write along in real time.)

b) More consistent academic advising might help shore up our preparation a bit. For me, advanced quant was not necessary for my project and career goals, but for others it might be. This is where the limitations of any program serving many students with a few faculty emerge.

c) Push those skills courses: for most policy students, taking advanced quant, finance, community development, or nonprofit finance coursework can only be helpful down the line. I will share here that I’ve heard-and hold–mixed views on doing a GIS course. My colleagues in community planning do extensive work with the tool, which we’ll not accrue over one semester. If you have a job requiring its use, chances are you’ll be learning on it anyway. On the other hand, I’ve heard good things about the actual class.

d) Students: claim your own education, ask questions, knock on doors, and don’t wait to have your hands held. That is definitely one approach to this process (grad school, your PDR or your career). Up to a point, developing assertiveness is necessary, and overcoming challenges along the way contributes to a great learning experience. But there is definitely more than one way to think about these matters and how much (or little) advisement or direction from faculty should be expected. In my section, we had to turn in a deliverable every couple to few weeks, meaning steady progress was made all term. From what I understand, other sections of the course work a bit differently. I end up feeling like since we’re still in school, having a place to crash-land or try out approaches with active guidance will serve us well since this sort of “safe failure” isn’t necessarily possible after May without far worse consequences.

e) PDR was a great capstone experience allowing us to sum up all of the skills and interests we have developed at Milano, and a satisfying end to a program full of hands-on client based work. Thanks to the PDR, you will know how to plan and execute a solo project and gain experience as a consultant with a professional client. It is a terrific transition to our soon-to-be professional identities.

So yes, there was some variation of opinion. Which is fair, accurate, and all good. We’re all not going to have the same experiences.

(I’m asking my classmates if they’re so inclined to contribute via the comments section. But forgive us if we’re not a font of info just now, since drafts are due this week!)

As to What Our PDR Did For Us, some of my colleagues’ work is to be published, some have job offers owing to the experience, and others discovered a field or type of work that they will be pursuing after graduation. Of course, for others it was a bit anticlimactic and not all sorts of amazing–but that is alright!

With that, I’m off to continue work on mine. Remember, with time here waning, if there are any issues you’d like me to write about before I leave you in Talib, Eulaila, and others’ capable hands, let us know!

Kristen

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what day is it?

Yes, I am still alive out here in Grad School Land.

I knew this second half of my final term would be busy–my naive fantasy of a calmer existence was blown quite awhile ago–and it is not disappointing.

For most of the past few weeks, the intensity of my respective projects and jobs has been increasing, which will make me feel accomplished, say, later this summer. At the moment, it just makes me very tired.

A recap:

PDR, or Professional Decision Report/final master’s project: research is ongoing and has me so entrenched in solar energy as a topic that I’ve begun speaking in odd technical lingo (you know, “a-Si thin-film vs. CVP” etc.) and my long-ago and far-away science teachers and professors might be happy to know that for the most part I’ve had a terrific time reading technical reports and geeking out on diagrams. The government impact studies, on the other hand…

Fellowship: Data requested months ago arrived. Last week. Not my client’s fault, but I may have shook my fist at the sky momentarily before pulling out my solar-powered calculator. I may have also daydreamed about the diagram I found explaining exactly how a solar calculator was a step forward in PV technology.

My Job: Talib decided to live-blog career services’ last alumni panel, so that was not a shameless plug I initiated. (Great idea, by the way!) We have a couple more of those panels upcoming as well as an event I’m quite excited about, a three-hour collection of mini-sessions showcasing our services. If you’re looking for an internship, about to graduate, and/or wondering how to stay sane in either case, please do stop by for one or two of those hour-long sessions at Lang Student Center next Friday from 10-1. (Now THAT was a shameless plug.) Planning for those events takes up quite a bit of time these days.

Classes, generally: I’ve come to think of class sessions as quiet time during which I can think hard about complex issues, and I cherish those moments since I know they have an expiration date. I am also feeling less like a student and more a working professional/consultant these days, so there is a certain oddity to those.

Career Search: Oh yes. It has commenced in earnest. (If you’d like to hire me, particularly for a writing-intensive position, please feel free to drop a line. I have broad interests and a burgeoning live-tweeting practice). I have a rule I’ve largely stuck to this semester, which is to have at least one “career-related” meeting a week–an informational interview, appointment at career services, or check-in with a professor; attend one event per week at which I’ll talk to a couple of new people, and to spend time on the “thinking” and “searching” work weekly as well. (Meaning: that “touchy-feely” introspective and reflective piece of employment search). Those stolen hours, and I do mean stolen, are the most difficult to carve out of my days but to me among the most important as we get closer to May.

Otherwise: also stolen, but necessary, are those self-care/fun elements which include time with my writing mentee, exercise, meditation, yoga, and even sharing a drink or two with a friend. Those things are sometimes only 20 minutes of my day, but they make all the difference.

With that, I am off to another writing/media project. I would like to promise a return to weekly posting for me, but we’ll see; I suspect you could simply lather, rinse, repeat the above and get the gist of my life until late May. It is nerve-wracking, exciting, exhausting, and even, at moments, a happy time.

Be well!

Kristen

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How tiring and consumed by research is my life these days?

Today I was skimming a public administration journal and came across an article title referencing “pirates” and Pittsburgh.

“When did PIRATES ever go to PITTSBURGH?”, I thought. “What would possess them to take the Monongahela?

Then I remembered these guys, the BASEBALL TEAM:

Right.  As a sports fan, that is just embarrassing.

I’m still trying to catch up from my Lost Days of Flu, so am scheduled nonstop for most of the rest of the next two weeks.  In some ways, zipping from one client project to the next, I’m seeing flashes of what will become my final deliverables and products, which is inspiring.  I’m also finally gleaning insights into my specific challenges to overcome as an independent consultant–such as learning how to gauge how much information clients need, and when.  (Not that I’m into withholding anything, but there is such a thing as polished presentation.)  Communication is a beautiful thing.

Hope all is well out there in grad-school land.   Someone out there get some sleep for me, will ya?

Kristen

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timing is everything

We’re just one week into this final semester, and already some of us are already probably technically a little behind thanks to our Surprise Snow Day! on Thursday.  This semester, I’m taking two courses and one of them meets Thursday mornings, so although I’m reading, reading away I’m still doing so in a bit of a vacuum.  This course is focused on more local, NYC-based “politics of policy” which I’ve been anticipating for a few semesters.  Between my fellowship project and this course, I’ll be spending a lot of time this term absorbing local politics and seeing how this city actually works.  This is why saving a great elective for the end is fun!

As to my final project, I’m reading plenty to prepare for that, too.  Although Advanced Seminar (the course within which you’ll write that project) seemed somewhat mysterious before it began, I was pleased to see that this is structured to serve as a support system and resource for us collectively as we complete this client-based work.  During my first master’s degree, the process of preparing a final project and comprehensive oral defense was a solitary endeavor (other than your faculty committee, of course).  While I don’t lie about my aversion to too much group work, in this particular instance I think having this seminar is terrific in yielding the best of both worlds.  As we’re doing work for our clients, we’ll have the other students in this experience, and having that collective support does make a difference.  At the end of the day, regardless of context, it is often a great joy and comfort to have someone else say “me too!”  (Yes, I’m being touchy-feely. Deal with it.)

Since this is my last semester, I wanted to ask readers or passers-by about any topics or items that you would like to hear more about.  My colleagues here (we have plenty) will be continuing on, of course, but in the interest of being helpful I thought I’d just put that out there.  If you have some burning question (or any other kind) about Milano, graduate school, etc., please comment and I’ll see what we can do!

Kristen

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